I am NOT an AB-DL! I am a Disabled person with a HIDDEN Disability! (NOT a label, still a person!) Is life pre-determined?

I am NOT an AB-DL! Don't be mistaken when i say this because sometimes, society as a whole, wants to categorize people who have legitimate reasons for wearing diapers. They want to push all of those people into one group of lots of other people who either wear diapers for fun or have fetishes. I sickens me that people are SO afraid of people who wear diapers! I found that psychologically, when your parents tell you something during potty training, it stays WITH you throughout your entire existence and when you get older, and experience people in diapers, you will tend to "Parrot" what your parents told you about diapers. (THIS is verifiable fact!)
While I DO FULLY understand why those of you that wear diapers for fun and fetishes,  I also know some of the reasons WHY you all tend to form these types of fetishes.
The answer lies in HOW...we were raised, the environments that we grew up in, and the VERY SAME people that potty trained us...and the things they "taught" us as we grew up! there IS NO REAL "Blame" for this...it IS however, the standards for which we are forced to raise our children! the NEED to be potty trained is one that seems to take away our innocence and hurts us psychologically. Back in the 1950s to the early 1980s, people were starting to use disposable diapers more and more. the push to get children out of diapers, as early as possible, wrecks us emotionally, and psychologically! EACH child should be allowed to train or NOT to train at their OWN speed! Society as a whole, needs to assimilate this new concept very quickly! The mental, emotional, and metaphysical damages caused by  the improper techniques used to potty train a child and the RUSH to do so so that kids can enter the school system, messes people up! Bottom line! Then we suffer through various emotional and physical abuses along the way as well. Then account for the hard, and abusive (regardless of how mild or how bad it is) environments, add it all up and THIS...is the VERY REASON WHY...we have a need for sites such as this one! The psycho-sexual damages we suffer so early on contribute to our adult lives in a VERY BIG WAY!
What happens to those people who can NEVER actually get potty trained in our society?
1. They get made fun of...shunned, and ignored! They are treated like a plague! THIS damages them EVER further and thus shapes them as people in the long-run! SAME thing happens to those with disabilities! (regardless of what that disability IS!)
I myself, have been in and out of diapers since I was 5!
My parents even sent me to various psychologists, and psychiatrists as I grew up!
NONE of which were any good at all! (My mother and father should have asked for their money back!!! LOL)
I EVEN spent 11 years of my life from 6 until I was 17, in in-patient treatment facilities all because my parents couldn't figure out if I had a fetish or if I had a real medical need!
JUST because these tests don't show the desired results, doesn't mean that there isn't something wrong!
The human body is still a mystery! Things can happen without there being a way to diagnose them! the Hippocratic notion that all things are explainable with a hypothetical hypothesis,is ludicrous!
YES...there may be an explanation, but even science needs to catch up to the occurrences that happen. MORE study is certainly necessary!
If you read my Life story, you will SEE that our society leaves a lot to be desired! We have A Cornucopia of knowledge to be learned! In ALL factions of science and regarding the human physiology!
We are getting quite far, however, we still have SO FAR to go! ONE thing...that hurts our society as a whole, is that we JUDGE! We label! We bully and we marginalize! We also try to "normalize" everyone and hold everyone to a one-size-fits-all standard and then we cry out "WE ARE INDIVIDUALS! WE ARE "FREE"! If we were TRULY "Free" there would NEVER actually be...the push for potty training, thus there would be MUCH less psychological, emotional and psycho-sexual damages done to each of us, and if that were also the case, that would be ONE less thing that would possibly lead some of us to have fetishes, and might even curb some crime too!
We need to fathom the concepts that the human psyche at such an early stage of life, is VERY fragile and impressionable! If you seek to create another "human worker drone" in the eventuality, then damages will be caused in the name of "NORMAL"! But...what IS..."Normal"????
"NORMAL" is ONLY relevant to each individual as to their routines! Anything outside of their "regular" routines, behaviors, and actions is abnormal!
Society has NO real "NORM" !!! It DOES have a "Standard" however!
That "Standard" that our "Government" creates for us to live by, makes us "hive Minded", and what we define as "Freedom" isn't REALLY "Freedom" at ALL! When someone gives you three predetermined choices to make and tells you of the consequences for inaction or incorrect actions, that...is NOT "freedom"!!! That is predetermination of destiny" or "Predetermination of will".
THIS is part of the reason that I was never allowed to potty train at my own speed! Had my parents allowed me to potty train or not, I may have been a completely different person with completely different perceptions, perspectives on life in general.
What happens to us throughout our lives, scars us for life! What doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger, shapes us.(both positively and negatively in a balance)
Who we are as people, is determined early on in our infantile development. Who we become, is determined by the choices we make as we navigate through each situation we get ourselves in!(if we get ourselves into a situation, (we can get ourselves out...but it is always easier to get in than it is to get out!)
I go to bed at night, wearing a very thick disposable diaper and I go through my day, changing over 5 diapers a day!
To have confidence in myself, is to always be on the edge of being a narcissist! If I were to ever tip over to the other side, self-loathing isn't the first thing that I'd notice! JUST because I have a high regard for myself, doesn't mean that I AM a Narcissist! It ONLY means that I live my life on a different plane of existence....my very perceptions and perspectives on life and the too limiting rules and regulations that exert control over my actions and in-actions, that I have to live by, as does everyone else, cause me to be limited slightly on this physical plane!
My Lifestyle is such that I do what I want, when I wish, and I try to skirt the walls of the rules without going outside of the defined lines. I am NO AB-DL but if I wish to research that lifestyle so that I can start writing more stories like that, then I must live that lifestyle only for a short time in as MUCH detail as possible!
Think of when an actor or actress has to "research" a role they are about to play in a movie or TV series......
THIS is exactly what I need to do as well being a writer. MOST intelligent writers will also do the same thing!
That way, they can speak from a first-person perspective from their OWN experiences! 
If I ever had the notion to up and go live as a full-time AB-DL, that I would! I would immerse myself fully and completely into that "task" and live it as though I were actually into it! Once I "get out" of that, I would have some very fresh and new experiences to use to write with!
The concepts that "To live is to know" and to walk a mile in someone else's shoes" allows me to enter "The Diaper zone" and thus will enable me to see things from my OWN perspectives instead of and in lieu of colored and suggestive perceptions of the AB-DL lifestyle and other lifestyles as I write.
I don't live my life, based on the opinions of others about me! I live my life, based on my desire to accomplish my OWN goals and get where I want to be...regardless of the level of financial status!
I am NOT after material or financial wealth! I am after, a very...shall we say...unique set of goals! I want to wake up society to the stark "individualism" that exists and thus create a new society that is more tolerant to people wearing just their diapers in public, at work, going shopping, or whatever it is that they do!
In doing so, I also hope to rethink the very standards of our society as they exist, in regards to potty training!
I want to lower and then remove the "standards" of our current society for wearing diapers, underwear, and the like, in public. WE are ALL human! We ALL have the same parts! All woman have the same parts, all males have the same parts and the misguided notion that we should be ashamed of what we have, is archaic and preposterous!!!

More on this at a later time.